The Heavens shake...

I have become my father...
Your father is somebody you wish to become because he is your hero,
But I'm him for a different reason though,
You see my whole life I grew up respecting woman because they do way more than any man has done,
think about it,
I win a soccer match my mom gave birth to me so whos won?
I managed to graduate school and she cheers in the stands with her beautiful smile she had brung,
Now I know that isn't a word but my mother has taught me to use my imagination and speak every word on my tongue,
I act like a badass mother Fer moms disappointed but glad to see I'm alive and to see me try to accompolish my dreams,
But me hurting the girl I love isn't something she wanted for me,
you see,
my mom was once a teenage crush even if thats hard to seem,
my father loved her and they give each other the gift of me and my brother,
so when I ask my girl to marry me I want my last name to be an option and for her to not want any other,
my dad left no word to me yet his actions spoke louder,
I don't want you,
I can't stand you,
I don't even know why I bothered with you I was better off alone,
My mother was crushed and thrown and destroyed,
She was better off I'd rather see her not annoyed,
Yet to see that A man can crush such a powerful beings hurt so much has me thinking,
isn't that me?
I mean I act like I don't care,
our love seems to no longer be there,
and I've ripped your heart out and thrown it in the shredder,
without you Im not getting any better,
But I treated you like a bitch the way I kept you on a short leash,
The beast you see, I hate to be, why have I done these things, to push you from me,
Your eyes are as shining as the stars,
And I made you live under a black cloud,
The rain won't stop coming down but they are held up from the shape of your frown,
How could I have done this to you,
Oh wait I know,
I'm heartless, I'm heartless because you hold the thing that beats,
no it's cause I'm EVIL,
wait no that's just short for Eddy Vega In Love,
It must be because It seems like I don't care,
I don't seem to pay worry for you because I know in the end you and I will be happy,
Happy because you will be proud of me for the way I will be proud of you,
for fighting since day one,
where I showed no emotions,
since day two,
where you said we shouldn't have sex till marriage,
since day 3 where I told you I love you and meant it,
or day 4 when we shared our love in my bedroom even though it didn't seem it romantic it was because it was you and I,
maybe day 5 when our son was born and the brightness of our smiles opened up our child's lung for his first breath,
day six where I was promising the world and you couldn't stand but see it as lies,
No day 7 but I promise you day 7 before the day I die,
Because that's our scheduled date for our marriage,
where we spend the rest of our life happily ever after,
linked by two bands and this dying day isn't sublime,
I hate myself for what I have done,
I hate myself for treating the person I love like crap,
and if I could I'd take it all back,
happiness is always greener on the other side,
I couldn't see it but maybe within your eyes,

Time flys

Wow it's been a while. Almost forgot about you blog!!!! Umm well a lot has happened since December. My lil guy was born on May 16th and he's 3 months now. We ended up going with thee name Calvin Abel Vega. I love it! He's a funny guy my son. Still going to school and trying to keep myself busy. LOVE the Mrs. Been working a lot on my music, just finished up a track I'm tryna record with my nigga Chris. Also looking for an idea to do for a mixtape. I'll update this a lot more within the week and try to stay on top. No followers but I'm working on it. Not many people I know use blogs.
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Fatherhood..

I'm going to be a dad..

I'm 18..

I know..

But I'm staying positive and I can't wait for my baby boy!!

were 5 months in...

I want the name "Eddy Logan Vega" but getting it across the Mrs. is going to be tough..

Well I'll try and get on this way more now and update more..

Happy Holidays!!

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