The Heavens shake...

I have become my father...
Your father is somebody you wish to become because he is your hero,
But I'm him for a different reason though,
You see my whole life I grew up respecting woman because they do way more than any man has done,
think about it,
I win a soccer match my mom gave birth to me so whos won?
I managed to graduate school and she cheers in the stands with her beautiful smile she had brung,
Now I know that isn't a word but my mother has taught me to use my imagination and speak every word on my tongue,
I act like a badass mother Fer moms disappointed but glad to see I'm alive and to see me try to accompolish my dreams,
But me hurting the girl I love isn't something she wanted for me,
you see,
my mom was once a teenage crush even if thats hard to seem,
my father loved her and they give each other the gift of me and my brother,
so when I ask my girl to marry me I want my last name to be an option and for her to not want any other,
my dad left no word to me yet his actions spoke louder,
I don't want you,
I can't stand you,
I don't even know why I bothered with you I was better off alone,
My mother was crushed and thrown and destroyed,
She was better off I'd rather see her not annoyed,
Yet to see that A man can crush such a powerful beings hurt so much has me thinking,
isn't that me?
I mean I act like I don't care,
our love seems to no longer be there,
and I've ripped your heart out and thrown it in the shredder,
without you Im not getting any better,
But I treated you like a bitch the way I kept you on a short leash,
The beast you see, I hate to be, why have I done these things, to push you from me,
Your eyes are as shining as the stars,
And I made you live under a black cloud,
The rain won't stop coming down but they are held up from the shape of your frown,
How could I have done this to you,
Oh wait I know,
I'm heartless, I'm heartless because you hold the thing that beats,
no it's cause I'm EVIL,
wait no that's just short for Eddy Vega In Love,
It must be because It seems like I don't care,
I don't seem to pay worry for you because I know in the end you and I will be happy,
Happy because you will be proud of me for the way I will be proud of you,
for fighting since day one,
where I showed no emotions,
since day two,
where you said we shouldn't have sex till marriage,
since day 3 where I told you I love you and meant it,
or day 4 when we shared our love in my bedroom even though it didn't seem it romantic it was because it was you and I,
maybe day 5 when our son was born and the brightness of our smiles opened up our child's lung for his first breath,
day six where I was promising the world and you couldn't stand but see it as lies,
No day 7 but I promise you day 7 before the day I die,
Because that's our scheduled date for our marriage,
where we spend the rest of our life happily ever after,
linked by two bands and this dying day isn't sublime,
I hate myself for what I have done,
I hate myself for treating the person I love like crap,
and if I could I'd take it all back,
happiness is always greener on the other side,
I couldn't see it but maybe within your eyes,

Time flys

Wow it's been a while. Almost forgot about you blog!!!! Umm well a lot has happened since December. My lil guy was born on May 16th and he's 3 months now. We ended up going with thee name Calvin Abel Vega. I love it! He's a funny guy my son. Still going to school and trying to keep myself busy. LOVE the Mrs. Been working a lot on my music, just finished up a track I'm tryna record with my nigga Chris. Also looking for an idea to do for a mixtape. I'll update this a lot more within the week and try to stay on top. No followers but I'm working on it. Not many people I know use blogs.
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